Dw i'n crwydro'r byd...additional words, in the wake of

one speaks while hearing one’s own speaking, wedding the self and sound as a singular event... since the voice is capable of being internalized at the same time as it is externalized, it can spill over from subject to object and object to subject, violating the bodily limits upon which classic subjectivity depends (LaBelle, B. (2010). Background Noise. New York/ London: Continuum)


The voice is also felt in the body: it vibrates, through breath, in the diaphragm, the folds of the vocal chords and in the eardrum.

Words that desire to be said, that cannot be said, not publically said. The unsaid is part of us is held, holds us. Words woven into a nest that sits in the hand, long string imply possible future weavings. Words made material, 3 dimensional, words safe enough to give to you – but silent, unreadable words. I also give my words to a stranger [ripped into strips, rearranged, retyped, remade], he sits back to back with me, reads my fragmented words, I cannot see him, I can hear his voice as he spills his/my body out, I feel my words as his rib cage resonates against mine. Self and other.

I embody the words. I disembody the words – hand them over, both readable and unreadable, I re-embody the words both feeling/hearing them come back to me and as I weave. I hear and feel my words but do not speak them.

Dw'n crwydro'r byd yn chwilio am nghrud

at Beyond Text: Making and Unmaking Text
Centre for Creative Collaboration
London
January 28th 2011

I sat weaving, a man sat back to back with me reading my words, the words fragmented from their sentences to make new meaning.
We weave our complicated lives? Bad and good, distressing and pleasing. Can we hold it? Are we held by it? Re-making the words I present the difficult side of my life; they can then be held in your hand. Words are spoken. a sense of closeness for the performing strangers, each others movement felt by each other.
weave : leave. weft : left. public : private. truth?




A link to an after writing
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Arranged 7 curated by Becky Cremin & Ryan Ormonde
Funded & assisted by AHRC: beyond Text; Royal holloway, University of London and The Centre for Creative Collaboration.